Yesterday ben and I drove to Newcastle to stay with his sister. The idea was to leave early to get here early….. however that didn’t work. Ben had to go to Tarree first, which was fine, then we missed a turn, took a wrong turn then had to wait for an ambulance. It was quite an adventure. Whwn we got here, His sister, her husband, her cute lil baby, Ben and I had to go shopping to get stuff for the party tomorrow. The shops was a fun place with us as Ben and I got to look after the baby and I turned into a ‘beep’ machine to keep him from crying. I enjoyed it as well I love children. Ben told me if I stopped and he started to cry, I would have to take him. I sware some people though he was ours.
Once we were finished at the shops, we got pizza for dinner. I know it isn’t helping with my diet but I wasn’t really concerned as tomorrow is the party and there will be chocolate and stuff there. Anyway, we got back to the house and his sister put the baby down. Her husband put all the murder mystery sheets together, Ben and his sister were in the kitchen perparing as much as possible for tomorrow and I was getting the menus for the cocktails together. I didn’t write what the cocktails names are coz his sister has better handwriting then me.
His sister went to a lot of effort to get the display for the table ready too.
Last night was very productive. This morning I got to babysit while Ben and his sister tried to finish much of the cooking. Ben and I will be driving to Tarree soon to start cooking a dinner for his mum tonight for her actual birthday before tomorrow’s festivities.
Anyway, until next time xx
This morning I had an appointment to get my test results back. Before going to the doctor I was nervous because I didn’t know what the outcome would be. So I sit down to hear the news and honestly I was genuinely surprised. The ultrasound came up with nothing. No gallstones, no tissue scarring, nothing. My blood test however showed a slight liver abnormally. I found this a bit strange and slightly worrying as I don’t drink and if I do, I have one or two. Thankfully though, the doctor said it wasn’t too bad and there is a chance that it could fix itself so he said to come back around the middle of May. To me this is a HUGE relief because I don’t lkke needles that much so by him saying that he wants to just keep me under observation right now is like heaven in my ears.
I’m still going to be getting my insulin levels in check as that hasn’t changed but after today I might start doing some research on how I could help the healing process of the liver. This to me is just more motivation to get and stay healthy. I mean I plan on staying around for a long time like my Nana who remarkably is 100. Her secret is laughter…. so she says.
Anyway until next time xx
Just sorted out everything at the TAFE and have finally got my transcript for my Diploma. So I have to say with that news and my fortnightly results, I am pretty happy today.
Weight: 71 kgs
Waist: 82 cm
Bust: 89 cm
Hips: 110 cm
Excited to say that I have made excellent progress and my goal of being 68 by March will be so easy if I continue with the way I am going. Honestly happy with where I am at the moment. In saying that though, I won’t be completely done until I have made it to a healthy weight for my height and insulin levels.
Until next time xx
On the 15th of February I went to a Mind, Body and Soul expo. It had a lot of workshops to do with tarot cards, dream recalling, aura photos and much more plus they had dental information centers and fitness senimars. It was such a great day of looking at the different crystal, books, dream catchers and participating in all the workshops. I also got a wax reading done, which to be totally honest, have never seen them done before. However, I am glad I got it done.
I won’t go into what the reading was about, but it did make me think a lot about a few things in my past and things I can do now to make life a little bit more fulfilling.
Anyway, since then I have had to have an ultrasound and blood tests done, I’ve been called up to have an interview with the head of TAFE to get answers about my Diploma and the most exciting of all, been asked to go to an information night for one of the child care centers I applied for and then from there a formal interview. It’s been both busy and exciting as this change comes about. I have to admit, I’ve been feeling as if I was stuck in a rut because no one was giving me answers about my Diploma, I was worried I wouldn’t get work as I don’t have my Diploma yet and well that’s it.
So today I thought, why not reinvent myself. I mean I’m already halfway doing it by getting my health in check and losing weight so why not continue to do stuff to better myself. I made a dream/ visionary board of what I want out of life. An example of what I want is to work in the career I am passionate about, child care. It was hard at first because honestly, I haven’t asked myself what I wanted other then to work in child care. After I had done my dream/ visionary board, I got motivated to clean. Boy did I clean. I cleaned room (which I have decided to go through all of my clothes when I am happy with my weight), I did three loads of washing and cleaned the entire kitchen. Plus there is still more I want to clean and sort out tomorrow.
I figure, if I truely want to reinvent myself and get ready for the change that is coming my way, I need to have a fresh outlook on everything. If that means I have to get a little dirty by cleaning, so be it. I feel happy and motivated by my decision and honestly I am proud of myself for making this decision and sticking to it. It feels better then letting people drag me down and stamp out who I am. With this reinvention I have also decided to not limit myself of what I truely what to do just because no one wants to do it with me.
This is the day I show everyone (including myself) who I am and all my potential.
Until next time xx
Just then I went to the doctor for pain I’ve been having in my stomach…… I’ll start from the start.
About two years ago I had surgery for gallstones. Of course that resulted in getting my gallbladder removed. About a few weeks later, I developed tissue scarring and was told I was not allowed to do anything strenuous for about six months while it heals. That was the best news to me because I got out of sports at school. Though it made me feel a little bad at the same time as we were moving house around that time and I wasn’t allowed to help. I did try of couse, though that just made me end up in more pain. Finally my scarring healed and I honestly thought that was the end of the excruciating pain I was in.
However, I have just come home from the doctors today as I was in pain were my surgery was two years ago. I went in hopping that it was something else that was easily treatable, though that was wishful thinking. The doctor booked me in for an ultrasound and two different blood tests on two different days. He said he could feel a mass of something in my stomach which he said could be a sist that I’ve developed on my now healed tissue scarring or that when I got my surgery done, a gallstone got left behind.
So on top of my insulin levels being high, I now have to be extra careful of what I eat in case it is a gallstone. I mean I don’t want it to flare up. I’ll know more next Tuesday. On the plus side, I apparently lost 2 more kgs.
Until next time xx
Today is valentine’s day and I am on bed rest. This is why I hate stairs and my ankle for giving out. However, today has been a good day. Ben and I played games on the wii and even started planning food and costumes for his mum’s birthday.
Her birthday is a murder mystery dinner while Ben and I are dressing up Victorian and before dinner there is going to be casino games and a lot of casino type foods. We looked on pinterest for some ideas and this is kind of what we were thinking:
Plus heaps of other ideas. I’m really excited for this. I seem to be really drawn to themed birthdays. For my 18th I had a formal themed party at a restaurant and even one of my friends adopted the themed party idea by having a masquerade theme. As I didn’t have a 19th party due to drama with so called friends, I have decided to have a themed party this year for my 20th. However, it will be consisted of just family, Ben (his is apart of me so he naturally goes everywhere with me) and two close friends. I would so much rather not missing out on having a party because of people in my life who cause nothing but drama everywhere they go.
A sort of down side to Ben’s mum having her birthday soon is there will be chocolate and a hell of a lot of sugar, which I have not be eating. I might have to brake it for one night so I’m not being rude by not eating. It wouldn’t kill me for one night.
Anyway, until next time xx
To be honest, today is the first day I feel lucky about getting a job. I haven’t got my Diploma yet, and it is so frustrating, but today I had an opportunity to go around to a few different centres for a meet and greet with the directors. I went to a few that I didn’t know existed in Port. In one of the centres I went to, I recived an application package. That is huge for me considering I haven’t had this much luck since I finished my course last year.
I came home around 12pm and in the time I’ve been home, I have received two phone calls from centres a and a call from the TAFE about my Diploma. So much has happened in one day compared to the whole year last year. I am so excited because today, today I feel like I can look forward to the next stage in my life. This opportunity could also help with me losing weight and getting my insulin right.
Honestly so excited and can’t wait. There are a few things next on the agenda but finally, I now feel like I can start to move forward and tackle new things instead of battling the same battle over and over.
Until next time xx