Day one

Today is day one of me being strict as all hell on myself. I did my yoga, had water and cereal for breakfast and I thought I could do it. It was going great… then lunchtime hit. I got those cravings. I got that feeling that feels like you’re missing something in your stomach and yes I did continually ask Ben if we could go get some chocolate or pizza. It got hard real quick.

It took a nap for me to stop asking for it. I am really happy that Ben also said no to it, because now I now he is 100% supporting me in my decision to not have chocolate  or anything unhealthy. However, I am going to put it out there that on Friday is mine and Ben’s 3 year anniversary. There is a chance that I will most likely have some chocolate or something unhealthy. Though in saying that, it will not be as bad as I have been of late.

Tonight, I did the cooking. I made the Asian dish I like and I am planning to make chicken and pasta tomorrow night- well that’s if the chicken has defrosted by then. Right now, the cravings are still there but not as annoying as they were today. The end result is worth it so I have to stay strong.

Till next time xx


Dancing Circles

Ok wow, what an incredible night. My friend and I went to our first Zumba class and my gosh does the instructor like to give you a workout. Well actually, the Zumba instructor is also the Burlesque instructor and damn she is fine. I say that as one woman appreciating another woman’s body plus she is my goal. Well not her, but her body is. I mean ideal wedding dress body plus pretty sure if I was in shape and looked like that, I’d feel sexy as hell.

Anyway, I digress. Zumba was amazing fun. Luckily, I had spoken to her beforehand and asked what to bring otherwise my friend…. and me…. would either have both fainted from intense workout or wore extremely non appropriate clothing that would have turned see through to the point of non existed. Hey, I don’t usually workout that hard core so not really knowing the appropriate attire is pretty much my thing.

Between Yoga/Pilates in the morning and Zumba this afternoon, has made my legs completely jelly and in a lazy coma state. However I feel, I still manged to ask the instructor when she was planning to hold the next Burlesque class. Turns out she is holding a mini Valentines Day workshop (Burlesque workshop thingy) and then after that do a full six week Burlesque block. Which you know, is totally awesome sauce. I think I may have even converted my friend into giving Burlesque a try *Evil laugh and tapping of fingers inserted*.

When Zumba finished for the night, my friend had her boyfriend pick us up and he took me home. Of course I didn’t have a big night planned when I got home, you know, knowing that after a big dancing workout would tire me out, I didn’t expect much. Though I was massively surprised when I walked through the door. Ben had been cooking up a storm and had a bath all ready for me. The dinner he mad was curried sausages and was absolutely amazing. He is amazing.


Zumba, we (meaning I will because I can’t speak for my friend…. though I think she will) be back and more incredible fun shall be had. Amazing night and amazing people.

Until next time xx

P.S- You are all beautiful and shine brightly. Be bold, Be beautiful, Be YOU ❤

Smoothie Time

So this post is a lil late, actually I’ll be posting a couple of posts because this week I have been a bit sick and therefore really slack on posting.

Anyway, a few days ago I made a new smoothie blend. It was meant to be Spinich, Kiwifruit and Banana but because I was making it for both Ben and myself, I opted out on having the Spinich. This is because Ben doesn’t like Spinich. Of course I’m eventually going to try it with the Spinich but for now it was just this one.IMG_20170128_111513_365.jpg

So its not as green as it should be but it still tasted delicious. Plus Ben enjoyed it too so I really can’t complain.

These smoothies are both filling and refreshing. So glad I have decided to go healthy and change my really bad diet around.

Anyway until next time xx

Getting into healthy

Today I tried something new. It’s new for me anyway since all the other times I would just buy one. Not today because I made both myself and Ben a smoothie. *Happy Dance Inserted*

It felt so weird using the blender. I mean I didn’t even know we had one…. well I knew but I didn’t think it was working. I was so confident doing it too, like it was meant for me to be doing it. Ok, that was a lil weird but it did feel really good making my own smoothie for a change.

It was a Strawberry and Banana blend. Which according to Ben, it didn’t go too go. He said he liked it but at the same time it was like they didn’t go together. I have to say, I have no idea what he is talking about as I thought it was delicious. The next ones I’m going to try are Kiwi Fruit, Banana and Spinich (not sure how that one will go but its worth a try right) and then Pinapple, Orange and Mango.


Super keen to be getting into smoothies and different blends of tea. Oh right I forgot to mention, I’m getting into herbs and spice and the properties of tea. Again this probably has something to do with my spiritual side also my grandmother mixing her blends and stuff but it still has me super excited.

If there are some awesome smoothie recipes out there or even juice ideas, feel free to share your favorites or the blends you like :).

Until next time xx

2017 so far

So it is a new year and past challenges are behind me. New adventures an new challenges are ahead and let’s be honest….. not sure whether to be excited or scared for them.

I have already mentioned the living arrangements and how things got under my skin. Honestly, I wish the little things would stop but unfortunately it hasn’t stopped. Even Ben said today we are past the point of saying anything to him because whenever we mention what’s on our mind and if he would please stop those things…. he just doesn’t listen. Though I am not going to bore you with the things that make me angry, instead I’ll most likely be boring you with all the things to look forward to this year.

This year so far (because it has only just started and things could change) has been filled with new determination. Though at work they have dropped me back down to casual and yeah that was kinda a little disappointing, it won’t stop me from applying for all the up coming jobs I know is coming up. I have started doing yoga each and every morning as well as meditating, I have been doing some spiritual healings- which has also helped me as well as the person I’m doing the healing for as it helps me tune into my spiritual being and my higher self and I have been taking care of myself by taking time for myself.

Last year I was kind of in hibernation where I didn’t want to hang out with any of my friends, this year I have been trying to plan things with them and just hang out. The key word there is TRY as sometimes my friends aren’t the most reliable with sticking to plans but I still try because I love them and I want to spend time with them.

Since I have mentioned the living arrangements, I should also mention that Ben and I were thinking of moving to QLD- not with dad- to get a fresh start. However, today brought some good news as Ben may have a chance of work, courtesy of a friend, so we may still end up living here but not in the same house.

This is a result of two reasons:

  1. The neighbor behind us has threatened to hurt my cat.
  2. We want to start a family but we can’t (more we don’t want to) while living with a room mate who is disrespectful to us.

Good news though, Ben and I have started talking about the wedding again. We have kinda decided just to have the ceremony and maybe do something small later with friends but having a reception just seems either too much money and an excuse to have a flashy celebration.

Until next time xx


Just sorted out everything at the TAFE and have finally got my transcript for my Diploma. So I have to say with that news and my fortnightly results, I am pretty happy today.

Weight: 71 kgs
BMI: 30
Waist: 82 cm
Bust: 89 cm
Hips: 110 cm

Excited to say that I have made excellent progress and my goal of being 68 by March will be so easy if I continue with the way I am going. Honestly happy with where I am at the moment. In saying that though,  I won’t be completely done until I have made it to a healthy weight for my height and insulin levels.

Until next time xx

Fortnightly Update

For the last few days I have been looking after sick people, visiting people and have had headaches myself. It has been very hectic however,  in that time Ben has been teaching me how to cook. This has helped me to eat more healthier and well just knowing how to cook. For a whole fortnight I haven’t had chocolate,  soft drink and well sugar in general and I feel so much better. I have more energy to do things throughout the day which is good.

Weight: 76 – small but definitely an improvement
BMI: 32
Waist: 84cm
Bust: 94cm
Hips: 113cm

There is an improvement but still have a long way to go. I feel accomplished even though it’s small. I feel happy and more energetic, I can only imagine how I’ll feel when I have reached my goal.
Until next time xx