When I left off I mentioned that I was making friends. In addition to spending time with friends, Sundays I have now being going to the club. Yes, I’ve started going to the raffles with my nan and pop. It’s been really good to have a day where I am with them because I can see how pop is and if he is having a good or bad day.
Of course this is my Sunday treat when I go. Can’t really complain with that right 🙂
So now to fully address my unhealthiness. I do feel a little ashamed for continuing saying I’m going to get healthy but then go back on my word. Hey, I never said I was perfect. It got to a point where my friend and I have stopped going to Zumba. This is because of work and the shifts we have during the week. My shifts are 9-5 whereas she has now been having shifts from 11-6 or 6-10. Not great for when you need to go to Zumba at 5.
I have also halted my yoga in the mornings. This halt is due to vigorous study and hectic preparation for workshops and mock interviews. I have to say, it was a good choice to halt my yoga because the extensive study has helped me to pass all of my assessments. Hopefully soon I’ll be able to get back into it.
I may have halted my yoga but I have been spending more time with this beautiful boy:
He has been my calm through all of the storms I have been facing. I mean he is just BEAUTIFUL!
Anyway this has been April for me and I’m super excited for May and all that may come.
Until next time xx
I haven’t posted in a few days. I have been a little bit ashamed to be honest because I have been indulging like there is no tomorrow. Yes, I mean chocolate and junk food. Basically everything unhealthy. I haven’t been doing my morning yoga or anything spiritual, which I normally did after yoga i.e. meditation, daily readings etc.
It started on Wednesday night when my friend and I couldn’t go to Zumba. That night I had Nutella pizza for dinner and then on thew Thursday I had KFC for lunch followed by another Nutella pizza- yeah I had two lunches on Thursday. Not only that but I have been buying Easter eggs at night time. You know the the small cadbury ones? Yeah them. A pack a night.
But in all truth I started eating chocolate a few weeks before that. Why? I don’t know. I mean I was fine and then I just got the craving for it. Of course I gave in but now…… now I just can’t stop. Nope, that’s a lie. I can stop, I just haven’t had the motivation to stop. So I made a decision to start again. To make the choice to be happy and to get rid of my health issues. This time I am gonna be harsh with myself. I’m talking no chocolate, no soft drink (OK maybe lemonade here and there) and absolutely no junk food (well maybe if I’m out with friends. Which is hardly ever so I think I’m OK).
I mean, I’m a typical girl who is in love with chocolate and all that unhealthy junk. Don’t get me wrong, I love a juicy Big Mac or a block of chocolate while watching a movie. Especially if its Harry Potter *Big Fan Girl Right Here* but I need to learn to balance that love with the love and self worth of my body.Right now however, I haven’t learnt that skill of balance so this is the best and at times (like now) the only option for me. To be harsh with myself and use a little tough love.
I am posting this today as I have had some time to think. Its good for me to post the healthy things on here to help me keep track but its only good and helpful to post the indulgences I have been doing. This way I can monitor my progress and see where and why I had a set back. Either way, I am doing this for myself. I’m not doing it to impress anyone or to have people judge me- which I am sure there is at least one person who will the moment I step outside the comfort of my house. This is because I am beautiful. I am strong. I am worth a lot more then I give myself credit.
Everyone is beautiful in their own way. Please remember that and love yourself.
Anyway, until next time xx